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Survived the weekend

  • Jun. 9th, 2008 at 3:56 PM
 
Well the weekend is over and it’s back to work. I hate to admit it, but there are times when I look forward to Monday. This last weekend wasn't any different than other weekends, I just had a hard time dealing with it. Everyone seemed to get on my nerves. I'm the type of person that just deals with whatever is thrown at me, so to have people around me creating drama over little shit drives me crazy. I just want to tell everyone to 'cowboy up' and deal with it. I know that isn't what is needed at that point; I just have a hard time relating to anxiety disorders. Anyway, today is another day. I survived the weekend and I am focusing on making today a good one even though I feel like I have to be someone totally different just to make sure everyone else is ok.

The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

  • Jun. 4th, 2008 at 10:00 AM

The Good:
My son came home Monday night! Woohoo! We were able to have a nice talk during the car ride home from the hospital. It was just he and I as my wife was at home with our daughter. We were able to discuss many things during the car ride including him going back to school on Wednesday. Going back to school is a huge anxiety point for him, but he was able to handle the conversation very well. The rest of Monday night went smooth. Tuesday had minimal issues at home during the day. He actually used Kelso's choices to stop fights with his sister from escalating.

The Bad:
Tuesday night was a different story, but it ended ok at least. As we were watching a movie, my son started to get giddy which is one of his warning signs that his mind is working overtime on something. When bedtime came he started to get very emotional about school. It escalated very quickly from 'I'm going to have a bad day' to 'why am I even alive' among other things. Once to that point there is no talking with him. He can't rationalize anything. Instead of talking about school I just asked him to go to his room and calm down. He just wanted to keep telling me about why it was going to be so bad, but I didn't acknowledge those comments. I stuck to my guns and calmly told him that I could see he was upset, but that there was no pint discussing it because he was so upset. I also told him that it was bedtime and he needed to go to his room and maybe try his DT box and that if he didn't go to his room, we would need to talk in the morning about a punishment. After a few more attempts of trying to provoke me into a conversation he went to his room and screamed and became destructive for 15 minutes or so. Things then got quiet and a few minutes later he came out and asked if I would do a Mad-Libs with him (from his DT box). We did it and he was able to laugh a little and seemed to be a little more calm. I was able to get him to bed soon after. My feelings were all over the board from being overwhelmed with yet another incident to being proud that in the end he was able to calm himself down. Overall it wasn’t too bad (we have had much, much worse).

The Ugly:
That would be me. It’s now Wednesday morning and I slept like crap. Must have been tense last night because my back is really bad and I can barely move. Who cares though. I can always take a few ibuprofen for that. I am just hoping my son does well today. I just called home. He is getting ready to go to school. He is running a little bit late, but I am just happy that he is going without blowing up. He is far from happy, but at least he isn’t having an episode. I told him that I was proud of him for using his DT box last night and that I hoped he had a good day. I didn’t get much of a response, but I am hoping for the best. Hell, I’m even hoping for marginal.

So here I am . . .

  • May. 31st, 2008 at 3:29 PM
I found this site by accident during one of my exhaustive searches on the internet for resources to help my son. It was actually the journal entries by miraclebean that I stumbled across. Her entries were very therapeutic for me as she shared her thoughts and struggles with her life and her son in particular. I could relate to many of the situations that she encountered, as I have had many similar events with my son. Reading her entries was helpful, and I am hoping that writing my own journal may help me as well. So here we go . . .
Today was a good day. I spent the night at Childrens where my son is in the IPU. He was allowed a 4 hour pass for today and we used it to gather things for making a distress tolerance box. We actually had a great time with only one minor meltdown with the anxiety of having to go back to school the day after he is released. He also had a bit of a stomach ache from his new medication (Zoloft). I am hoping that it will get easier on his system or we will need to switch . . . again. Tomorrow we get another pass and will be taking him to the Mariner’s game. Hopefully things will go well. And on Monday he will be coming home in the evening. I can’t wait for Monday. It will have been 11 days that he has been away from home. I have talked with him every day and visited every day but one, but it still sucks to have him gone for so long since I know he is struggling with being there. I am sure it won’t be a picnic when gets home, but at least we can get back to some level of normal . . . or at least what is normal for us.
I think that’s enough for now. Don’t feel dumping all of my thoughts into a journal today.

I'm exhausted

  • May. 30th, 2008 at 5:50 PM
 I'm exhausted. I wish my first entry was more than that, but it will have to be.

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